Yes, distance definitely does make my heart grow fonder.    

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I believe words aren't enough to communicate my love, but I must try.

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I used to beg my parents every night to tuck me into bed. Burrito style I'd call it. Laying pin straight on my back, a cozy wrap under my arms and my back and my legs. Every crevice of my body swaddled in warmth and protection from the monsters in the toilet on the other side of the door.

 

You are this feeling I begged for. The feeling of my soul wrapped in oozing warmth, into the safest place where my heart can lay up, outstretched, ready to dream. (dogs only lay with their belly exposed if they feel safe with the beings around them :)

 

You've created a love for me that allows me to rest inside the child within. Burritoed by your love, I am safe to open that door. To face the unknown rather than flush it down. To play with curiosity under the sun. To envision the endless growth, height, wrinkles of my, your, our future. How big my ears will get!

 

I want to feel the sound of your beating heart. Small and curious at times, adult and determined at others. I will follow that pulsation. No doubt.

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I am so so so in love with who you are in your deepest truth. Looking in your eyes, I see the little boy inside you too. And I realize, looking in, through, you, that you are developing from this seedling that was so cherished and loved, free to dance and play and explore the expression of the world. I see how bubbly and bright thinner, lighter-haired Eitan is. When your hair thins again, on the other side of life, I want tiny Tan to feel proud and full of the life he's lived. Like his life was one long playdate where imagination is reality. I see that light that birthed you and I want to make your future even brighter and warmer. All I want is for tiny Tan to feel full. I am so passionately motivated to serve the child in you. For us to exist on the playground of love and life and hardship. For you to be free to feel everything inside yourself and outside and beyond because of the warmth that shelters you. I love you so so much. I'm committed to protecting your curiosity and creativity inside. I just love you. Tiny one, you will meet me soon and I won't let go of your soft heart. Wow I love you so much.

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Eitan, I really love you how I always hoped, knew I could, love someone. With tears of every emotion, I love you! Still these words are not enough.. I'm by, on your side. Endless.