Aja Monet and Me Just Free Flowing
Updated: Oct 8
September 27, 2026
Hey boy, it's been a minute. Not that you would conceptualize this time away since you'll receive all these entries simultaneously. But I want to add one more commentary on long distance even though I came to the conclusion a month ago that we can hold it down in ways beyond what the internet can tell us. Mostly, I want to add one more to have a list of three next to the photo of your upadayana flowers ;)
What I'm thinking recently is that our love is not something that needs to be psychoanalyzed or delicately picked apart to survive. It has a heart of its own that is healthy and pulsating in all the ways it should - and even in ways beautifully atypical to most shared loves in the world. What my thought has shifted to in the past month is how our individual hearts can beat, move, in ways that flow into the one we share. The time is now to be with ourselves, cultivate our dreams and selfhood, self-love. And once this space apart ends, when we unite in body, our love will be even more pure and strong. We get to be by ourselves with the other truly in mind and considered. We get to be alone together! How freaking smart are we. We've taken the blessed opportunity to be two wholes coming together to have a heart² rather than one heart halved. I'm not sure if that makes sense, but what I'm saying is we will have two hearts coming together to be with abundant love - sources of love from both of us. And if one heart was split between us, the love would not be as limitless and infinite.
Okay also realizing that my logic of our heart might seem to contradict with us having two hearts. But what I'm saying is that there are three hearts, loves, in our relationship. The one that is yours, one that is mine, and the third that is ours created by two individual self-loves, self-knowledges etc. This may be obvious? IDK xD
Without taking this space and time, we'd doing our becoming a disservice. That's all I'm saying.
The lyrics are not in alignment with what I'm saying, but its in my head right now.
ANY FREAKING WAYS
a poem interesting when decoded through this place of mind ;)
The Water is Rising by Aja Monet
ocean sprung
drowning in depths
wading through
what craves and swims within
to become the sea
i leave the shore
bathing in awe
moon-touched
looming over
mermaid flesh
cowrie eyes
in the echo chamber of shells
how we do what we do
is as important as why
context is the content
love or fear
from where do we work?
trust or threat?
what is your constitution?
are you showing up in the world or in
your work in a way that is sustainable
for you and your community?
most of us have an adversarial relationship with our body
we have pain, we want it to go away
have you listened to your body lately?
to be self-aware is to accept yourself as a self is not you
interrupt the pattern of your mind
do we want presence or absence?
when we express our thoughts too soon
we lose our agency
to listen
we learn to not learn
more concerned with being right than sincere
righteousness rather than presence
the fog or fury or regret
be compassionate with your silence
conflict is the highest form of intimacy
invite the world you want to see into your eyes
all safety is a place of risk
to be heartbroken is to see you're not sure what you're seeing
which way is up or down
you are a part of me that i do not yet know
keep your agreements
listen from the gut of your hands
can you locate yourself?
many move through the world looking for a threat
a cell can only vibrate as high as it's surroundings
i touched the fatigue of our love
only as strong as our ability to grieve together
imagine
who is the one person you have not tried
to love?
when we are absent from now we grieve the then
forgiveness is freedom from the war of when
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